ArinaOfHelithane

all at once, there is a bigness and a smallness that I feel as if there is not enough skin to cover me and yet that I am drowning in my own mind; this feeling of inadequacy; like goldilocks and the three bears this meatsuit is too big this meatsuit is too small this meatsuit is too hot this meatsuit is too cold this meatsuit is too hard this meatsuit is too soft i never knew what to call it, my search for the thing, this word i could never describe, but now i know what it is, it’s a meatsuit. A meatsuit for my family, for my few friends, a meatsuit for grandma and a meatsuit for my brothers, and a meatsuit for when I am too scared to

"Mom...Mom, doesn't he look familiar?" "I don't know, Ben honey. You always think you know people.." Dean cupped his drink harder, his hands shaking gently. He knew he looked so different from the way he did those few short years ago; his skin was weathered and he had a terrible limp from a hunting accident in Albuquerque (there was something about Albuquerque and Chicago, Sam had almost been crippled on a hunt in Chicago just a year before and Cas had gotten his first taste of the pills that almost killed him in Albuquerque). He reflected on the past event's, he could hear Ben's voice again. He knew it was Ben, his voice was deeper but st

all at once, there is a bigness and a smallness that I feel as if there is not enough skin to cover me and yet that I am drowning in my own mind; this feeling of inadequacy; like goldilocks and the three bears this meatsuit is too big this meatsuit is too small this meatsuit is too hot this meatsuit is too cold this meatsuit is too hard this meatsuit is too soft i never knew what to call it, my search for the thing, this word i could never describe, but now i know what it is, it’s a meatsuit. A meatsuit for my family, for my few friends, a meatsuit for grandma and a meatsuit for my brothers, and a meatsuit for when I am too scared to